To be honest, I thought death is far away from me.
However, I suddenly found my families do not look like the images in my mind, and their health begins to face some problems, the word ‘hospital’ constantly appears in our life. This is a signal, that reminds me something may happen one day and more and more close. At that moment, I started to think about what will happen, if my family leaves me or I leave at one day. Every age group has its own understanding of life and death. This is changing with age or what they experience. I used to think the death happens with age from the older generation to younger, until one day, a person who has unexpectedly left me, has broken all of my imaging about death. Life is fragile, and no one knows which comes first the accident or tomorrow.
I interviewed some people who are in various age groups from 17 to 74, and could sense their life experience from the answers, someone is optimistic, someone is negative. But they give me sincere thoughts. There is a security supervisor who expressed that he is a Christian and think people are going to heaven when he was young. Right now, he would become wiser. It didn’t mean he changes his thoughts, instead, this kind of wiser comes from his life experience and builds up who is he. Besides, when I ask my brother what is his thoughts, he said go ahead, don’t fear it, that is quite positive. After that, I interviewed my grandmother, she said life is for living, the death is an escape. Her life has too many things happened, although she behaved very calmly when she said, I still can feel her fatigue.
It is hard to explain where they will go because no one could know what will happen after death. When I was a child, the most answers I heard are that they are going to heaven, or they may become the stars in the sky, and accompany with or watch you. It is an answer that may comfort the people who are living. As an adult, people need to keep life as usual, while dealing with this feeling when they stay alone, or at the night. They overcome; they grow up. It sounds quite cruel and helpless, but the fact is that people are always forced to grow.
Before this project, I never thought about this question, may due to the age, it is hard for me to give a specific understanding. Based on what I have experienced, I cannot predict what is my feeling, is unknown, is the thing making me fear. I just know I do not want to feel regret, no matter for my life, or about my family. Because people often don't know how precious they have until they lose it. This kind of painful feeling, all people will experience, is different from other things.
In addition, contentment and feel grateful are most essentials. All of the things and people we met are unique, although the processes may make you unsatisfied even you do not want to remember it again. When you actually over this ridge, these experiences become a part of who you are as well. Everyone could sustain various emotions, such as happiness, sorrow, pain, pleasure, positive, and negative. However, these just what you as a human must have, you could be better yourself when you have them. Definitely, those who help and encourage you are the gift, to be honest, these are not their obligation, we remember what they do, while thanks them.
In conclusion, my understanding about life is that try my best to cherish my daily life and love people around me, remember contentment, and grateful all the time.
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